and honestly…
if only she knew
if only she knew that I do have motives to better myself
motives that have been put into effect as of recently
that I know how I was
and I actually want to be better
but she makes it hard
if only she knew that I took extra steps
went out of my ways
out of laziness
to better my habits
but I can’t tell her
it won’t matter
and I guess you could say, “as long as you know”
but it’s not enough
as if it wasn’t bad enough that my bitch of a mother was stern-talking me..
she has fucking FOOD in her mouth while she’s doing it
she knows I hate that shit
nagging and picking at me
while I have to hear her chew and chew
like a pig.
I swear my biggest aspiration is to be nothing like her
“you need to straighten yourself out this year”
please, I’ve got enough running through my mind, you’re the last voice I want in my head.
but why is it so hard to brush off what she says to me…
think I jizzed when I heard Syd’s “Flashlight” on THE GAME
Russell Brand and Katy Perry are divorcing
Fuckin Shoot Me
